Friday, March 24, 2006

The new me!


I think we probably all have body parts that we identify with- that are dominant features that sort of define us in a way. For me its my hair. I have always had long curly hair. I usually end up putting it up a lot because its big and curly but if I wore it down, it always got comments. Which was funny to me because half of the time I felt like it was just this big wad of hair on my head! At any rate, probably due to this to some extent, I have always had this security blanket of big hair and I have always been a little nervous of not having all this hair. And lately it has really been getting so long . It also happens to be the month of the two year anniversary of my sweet baby girl's open heart surgery. Aside from all the the feelings of relief and joy that she was finally better, the feelings I have about that time are overshadowed by the complete sadness of being in a place where sick children were. Sleeping at the hospital and spending a lot of time there, you meet people and see their kids and realize how incredibly lucky we were that all she needed was open heart surgery. My girl is amazingly well now-better than new, I like to say. The first year anniversary we took a bunch of books and videos for the hospital library. This year though, I went to the salon, and my stylist took that lush carpet of brown curls living on my head, put them in two ponytails and lopped them off right below my ears! Then we put them in a bag and they are on their way to Locks of Love. It was something small that I could do. I can grow hair , and there are so many beautiful little girls (and boys) that can't. There is also something to be said about the fear and sadness that can overwhelm a parent when their child is struggling . It makesme tear up just to think about it. Mom to Mom, this felt really good. Whenever I catch my reflection, I am still a little stunned- and when I run my hand through the tiny peices of hair at the nape of my neck, it just makes me smile. I just feel happy that I did this. Not only because I feel like it was the right thing to do, but because I was able to put my vanity in the right space. On one hand, its only hair! But to someone who can't grow their own ,or have the finances to allow them to buy it, its a lot more.
Now for the crafty part of this post! I have one skirt down and one to go! M and her cousin are geting matching skirts for her cousin's birthday. It turned out pretty cute if I do say so. This fabric is so charming!

5 Comments:

Blogger Strikkelise said...

Wow. It's hard to imagine what your family has been through, although I know a little about having kids go to hospital. It's so good to hear that your daughter is "better than new"!
And it's so lovely to hear that you are passing on the good that actually comes from living through something like that. I never even knew that there was such a thing as "Locks of Love".

12:58 AM  
Blogger shim + sons said...

What a sweet story. SO happy your baby girl is doing well. Love the skirt!

11:16 PM  
Blogger molly said...

what a wonderful post. it is beautifully written and so heartfelt. I definitely take much for granted, whether it is the health my children or the length of my hair! what a wonderful gesture to honor your daughter's better than new anniversary!

5:49 PM  
Blogger mairsy said...

That was a beautiful thing to do.... i greatly admire your act of giving. Isn't it amazing when something sad and profound happens it puts all our other so-called worries and insecurites aside.Congratulations !

3:57 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I cut my hair off back in Dec & sent it to Locks for Love, too. I'm glad your daughter is well now.

-Your SP

12:11 PM  

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